Friday, December 23, 2011
my dearest ah ma passed away on 17th Dec afternoon at the age of 103.. today is the 7th day of the funeral and she has been cremated.. till now, i still couldn't believe that she has already left us, left the world.. and i know its too late for all the younger ones to show our love and respect for her..
throughout the 7 days of funeral, it was filled with sorrows since day one.. everyone just couldn't help but feel sad for her departure.. that shows how much all of us likes and loves her.. she has a total of 16 grand children and she never fails to give enough attention, care and concern to all of us. she has a very special place is every single of our hearts.
my ah ma has been staying with me and my parents since the day i was born. from young whenever my mom wasn't around, she would be the one taking care of us. whenever my sis gets beatings from my mum for being naughty, my ah ma would try to stop the punishment as she feels hurt for seeing my sis getting caned. my ah ma, sis and i used to have lots of fun playing together when we were much younger. although she's already in her early 90s, she still tried her best to "entertain" our silly games. five stone was one of the more decent game we played together, and i was really amazed that my ah ma was so good at playing it.
you know little kids when they are young, they tend to feel scared when there's no one at home. once i was really scared and i force my ah ma to sleep in the living room which she usually doesn't do so. it was really nice of her to accompany me taking away my fear. sometimes my cute ah ma would accidentally locked herself in the store room when she was looking for things. she was trapped till we came home. despite of her old age, she still goes to the void deck to take a walk every morning no matter rain or shine. she's a very social-able senior citizen, she gets along very well with the rest of the "ah mas" downstairs.
when i was much younger and nonchalant, i used to yell at my ah ma when she does something wrong unintentionally. thinking back, it was really mean of me to do so. sometimes i really wish that i could be older and more mature when my ah ma was staying with me. So that i could treat her as good as i could and spend more time with her. when i was in my upper secondary, my ah ma shifted to my 2nd uncle house. from then on i hardly had the chance to see and talk to her. every time i told myself that i should go along with my dad to visit my ah ma, but i failed to do so as i would forgotten or too caught up with other things. this year, i only met her once during chinese new year. and that was the last time i saw her alive. truly regret for not spending more time with her. if i could bring the time back again, i would like to be a good grand daughter, being filial and spend as much time as i could with her.
tears aside, i believe that she is now happily reuniting with my ah gong in heaven. after 20+ years, she must had missed my ah gong a a lot. i could see my ah gong ah ma holding hands, strolling happily in the beautiful world above. rest in peace ah ma, love you lots.
Just The Girl @
6:34 AM
